I haven’t done much of 50 consecutive anythings in my life ( I’m not the best example of perseverance), so the fact that I’ve shown up for 50 days in a row to share my thoughts and feelings on something as personal to me as my depression, is a great accomplishment.
Okay, I’m done patting myself on the back.
Now, having said all that… I’m thinking about cutting down my posts from the current daily publication to maybe three times a week or so. I’m not really getting burned out, but I do feel the pressure every day to come up with something. On some days it’s easy, on other days it’s not. So I’m going to cut myself some slack.
Which could be a bad move for me. What’s the saying, give someone an inch and they’ll take a mile? It has been a great discipline for me to sit down each day and search my mind and heart and soul (and Wikipedia) and then put what I found into words. It’s been a very therapeutic undertaking as well. My concern is that perhaps knowing I’m not obligated to post something will give me just the excuse I need to forego any introspection. We’ll see.
I’m going to try to keep to a three times a week schedule, something along the lines of Sunday, Wednesday and Friday. If I get super inspired, I’ll write more frequently, but I’ll try to at least get in three.
And then I’ll have to think up something to do with all the time this will free up for me. It takes me kind of a long time to write these posts, believe it or not. Maybe I’ll do more reading. I went online to join a Meetup group yesterday, and they had a bunch of questions I had to answer before my membership would go through. This particular group was for writers, and one of the questions was, “What are your three most favorite books of all time?” Well, that was a stumper for me. With my poor memory, I can barely remember even reading three books, let alone recalling which ones they were and whether or not I liked them.
So I went to my bookcases and looked for titles that struck me as something I may have enjoyed or been impressed with at one point or another. And I figured if I still had the book in my bookcase, I must have liked something about it. The three books that came out the winners were Autobiography of a Yogi, by Paramahansa Yogananda; The Tipping Point, by Malcolm Gladwell; and Chris Imbo’s Peak 10 Fitness, by – you guessed it – Chris Imbo. Probably not the literary giants that the Meetup group was looking for, but what can I do? Make something up? In retrospect, maybe that would have been better.
I imagine the group leader has had a chance to read my info by now and I haven’t gotten any emails telling me that I’ve been banned from the group, so that’s a good sign. Maybe I’ll start out by reading those three books again just in case there’s a Meetup group quiz later on.
Enough rambling. I’ll catch you on Friday if not tomorrow. Maybe daily writing is an ingrained habit that I won’t be able to stop doing. That would be a fun twist to the plot.